The Beginning......

The Beginning...

Last Tuesday I started a new diet that I hope will be my last diet. This past week I have been trying to figure out how I can stay on it and hold myself accountable.  As most of us know, that have a weight problem, the problem is more than food.  I want to explore some of the issues and record my thoughts, successes, struggles, and emotions along the way in an attempt to beat this demon.  This is the reason I have decided to create a blog; in hopes that there are others out there that are doing the same thing and perhaps we can connect, share with each other, support each other and most of all hold each other accountable. I know I am going to need a lot of help because I need to lose 127 lbs.  An entire person!!  I am looking forward to having more energy and being able to do more fun things with my three year old and 8 month old granddaughters, my husband, and my own daughters. 
I know I need something to keep me honest and committed and I thought what better way than to share it with the world.  It is so scary because I keep thinking what if someone that knows me sees this?  What are people going to think?  I already know people see me differently because of the weight and wonder how in the world did you let yourself go and get this heavy.
+Believe me I didn't wake up one morning and think "Wow, I want to be fat".  It happens little by little over time.  I had a little weight gain while pregnant, a few more pounds each year, life happens and then you're fat.  I'm not saying it's a surprise I was overweight all my life but not this large.  I saw a picture of myself one day and couldn't believe it was me.  I lost 54 pounds and then a year later I gained it all back.  That is what I want to avoid this time.  I hope this is the first step!